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I’ve got control my life back, while I was working hard in my business and financial side of my life, I have been neglecting the key health and fitness aspect. I think for a healthy mind to exist, there needs to be a healthy body.
I’ve fallen in love with kettlebells because they’re relatively cheap to buy instead of a resistance weights set-up, then you simply exercise in the open air, a garden or a large room in your house perhaps. There are endless amounts of kettlebell workouts available, I highly recommend the kettlebell workouts here, the instructions are clear and has some clear diagrams and videos to help you perform the exercises the best.
My health and fitness took a huge dive, and when I first started my kettlebell routine I was gasping for air after just a few minutes. I couldn’t believe it. Luckily you have beginner’s luck on your side, you can improve back to healthy levels within 6-8 weeks.
I plan to do the kettlebell snatch test, which is basically 10 minutes of non stop kettlebell snatch lifting detailed here, now don’t get me wrong at this stage, I don’t even want to contemplate what would happen if I attempted this now. I think it’s fair to say that my fitness levels are far too low at this stage to be able to perform the snatch test right now.
What I like particularly about kettlebells is that a workout only lasts maybe 15 minutes at most, which means I can easily fit it into my daily hectic schedule without feeling like I’m having to do without other responsibilities.
It’s the 6th august right now and what has been going on since my last post? I’ve got a stable, fun and fulfilling part time job, that’s challenging me. In the job front I’m doing good, I’m also training hard as well and improving on all my lifts, however, I’m still missing out on the social aspect, and have neglected to go out with friends and generally meet other people, it’s tough for me as I feel like I prefer just staying at home and watching tv in-between my job and hobbies, I have in the past always have been an all or nothing thinker, and I can’t be bothered to do something for fun for just one day a week and would rather go neck deep into something and do it often and frequently, this is why going out to zocialise once a week does not appeal to me. If I’m going to do this I would rather go backpacking around the world for 3 months to meet new people than do it half heartedly for a few days every once in a while.
Still played videos games a little today, sent out 4 CVs to companies on gumtree, made a day plan accomplished half of what I set out to do.
I’m finding it difficult to balance everything, the boy inside of me whats to procastinate and waste time, and the man inside of me wants to get my life together, get a real job that pays good money and move out.
Tried to train today, but because I was playing video games all day yesterday, I didn’t eat much and almost passed out today trying to train.
Need to try harder tomorrow
spent all day playing gtaiv, only wanted to play a few hours but became obsessive and wanted to finish the game, giot hooked onto it, and ending up playing for the whole day.,
felt really crap about it by the end of the day, and then i realised i have a huge vacum in my life, and i need to find a career that i can be proud of and get rid of this existential void.. i need to get a career and move out, and this will give me the freedom and responsibility and everything else will fall in place.l
I just bought Paul McKenna’s book from sainsbury’s for a mere £1 as you can see below. I’ve heard good reviews of this book, and in the past I rubbishes it off as a cheesy self help book. Apparantly it’s pretty damn effective. Comes with a nice hypnosis CD too.
Watch this space for a review soon
I’m writing this blog post as I an trVelling on the central line to shephadds bush. To get to westfields shopping center. Communiting is a funny thing, we spend about 1 hour on the trains each journey, this should really be a time to unwind and relax, however it can be very stressful, avoiding eye contact with anyone and everyone, trying to look busy Reading the paper, loathing to iPod and what not. I wish I has the courage to strike up a conversation with the nubile chick in front of me. I dontk ow why I’m worried about really.
She’s quite pretty, probaly 30, looks professional and ….. She just got off the tube. My luck
Sheesh a couple oh hours later and shopping done and here I am again in the tube on my way back from westfields. Sitting on the tube carraige opposite yet another cute person. Yet unable to communicate let alone fathom up some carriage to go chat her up.
Why does commuting have to be this way, would be far better if we could make it fun somehow. Anyway i’m looking forward to going home and trying on some of these clothes I’ve bought once more. I’ve tried them on in the shops but I find the lighting sort of distorts how the clothes actually look and feel on you.
I kinda avoided using iTunes because it was unfamiliar to me, and I much preferred to play songs on a track by track basis on VLC players, and since windows media player stopped being an mp3 player and started to become more of a music managment device it because kinda difficult to manage.
I recently bought an iPhone and it sort of forced me to use iTunes, (it won’t allow me to use any other music player on it), and after being annoyed initially, I got into the full flow of things.
I started to rate every song in my music collection from 1-5, I deleted all the 1-star songs, then I got all the album artwork for every song, and name all my music correctly (correct artist, track, album names).
It took my quite a few days to do but got there eventually.
And sometimes it can be a bit of a mind-numbing chore, leaving you wanting to quit and go away and do something else. However once completed the rewards are immense.
Some of the benifits listed below
- Much more organised music collection allowing you to find tracks quick and easily (thanks to correct tags used)
- Better understanding of your music tastes, from rating track
- Easy to create playlists of different genre’s, tempo’s etc of music allowing you to listen to music to suit your mood
- Album artwork makes your music collection appear more “real”, especially when flicking through tracks on your iphone
- Makes you more familair with your favourite artists, how many songs out there do you like but don’t know the name of?
I found this resource invaluable in teaching me how to oranise my music http://ipod.about.com/od/advanceditunesuse/ss/album_artwork.htm
Also the shazam app for the iphone is really good for identifying songs that you dont know the names of, I’ve had quite a few songs in my collection that I didn’t know the name of [because they had generic names like Track1 - Now69 etc], with shazzam I simply press ‘Tag’ and it recorded 10 seconds of a song and came back with the artist and song name.
I came across this topic randomly whilst browsing the net, and I remember having a strong emotional response to this because it brought back some painful memories.
My family was very poor, when I was a kid I used to resort to stealing from my parents in order to buy stuff that all the other kids used to get. I would steal money from my parents to buy sweets, football cards, drinks and just general spending money that all the other kids were given by their parents.
I remember hating having to do this, however I felt like I needed to do it because it saved me from the humiliation of having no money to spend, and I hated being one of the poor kids at school.
I used to dread every non-uniform day deep inside, but at the same time I had to show that I hated wearing my uniform and was looking forward to it in order to fit in with peers.
What’s funny is that I lived in a working class family and most people in school struggled to pay the £1.5o levy to get into school wearing non-uniform. But nobody dare mention the fact that they couldn’t afford to pay £1.50 to get into school.
So either the kids bunked school or got into school wearing uniform and face humiliation.
I used to enjoy school and couldn’t afford to pay the levy, so I would find out about non-uniform days and save up in order to get in. Other kids would come into school late which meant that they avoided paying altogether.
Non-uniform days would happen once every couple of months or so, and I had to contend with other issues such as how do I avoid wearing the same clothes which I wore on the last non-uniform day.
Kids are brutaly honest, and would make fun of you.
Looking back in hindsight, I never want to live in such poverty as an adult, and would never wish for this for my children. I’ll make sure I have plenty of money and my kinds have their basic needs met. Secondly, it’s funny how much kids care about peer pressure, as an adult I’ve matured so much and I really do not care what so ever what other people think of me, however this is not the case of kids.
I need to take close look at what my internal voice is saying to me, and how it is limiting me. I will update this page over the coming few days with updates on what’s going through my head.
I use computer procastination as a distraction to get away from the pains of my mind, the mindis constantly talking negatively and telling me things that are not positive, overly critical and destructive, watching pointless online streams, playing video games etc is a way to get away from my mind. However in the long term procastination does nothing for my mental health and simply hides the problem away from me. I must be at least OK with sitting in a room in silence by myself first.
I keep people at a distance, and find flaws in people really easily in order to avoid connecting with them, I write people off too quickly and only look for positives in a very small number of people, in doing so I create reasons to avoid dealing with them. Deep down I do this to avoid ego bashing of receiving potential rejection from other people.
I don’t think of the positives that could happen from an outcome I tend to think of the negatives that could happen, just before it’s time to get ready and leave to go and party, I tend to think “what’s the point?” nothing different is ever going to come out of this situation. ANd just like a self fulfilling prophecy it doesn’t. I need to think more positively and look at things through a half-full perspective. I need to approach everything with a new perspective and not look at things through a beaten up, ragged, old viewpoint.
I feel unloved and betrayed by my family, I don’t trust them to offer me anything and I have to rely on myself exclusively, moreover I feel they’re holidng me back, if I could restart from scratch and choose a different family I would.
Men are good
Women are manipulative and devious
My body is awkward
My career is stale
My future looks unpromising
My partner will never materialise
I’m good at wasting time
I’m lousy at holding friendships
People think I’m lucky
When I’m under pressure I withdraw
The world is cruel
What I love about people is there are so really good people out there
What I hate about people is that they all ignore me
My heart is broken
Marriage is futile
Love is evasive
Excercise is my old straw
Work is pointless
Life is meaningless
I read a forum post, a guy basically wrote a long wided post about why things aren’t going right for him, and basically feeling sorry for himself. I saw the thread and realised that it was relevant for me. I’ve reposted it on here for all to see.
You’ve got a real attitude problem mate.
Firstly, absolutely no-one owes you anything.
Despite you thinking you’re so great, that doesn’t mean anything. You are defined by your actions and you’re weasly because you only put this ‘effort’ in in order to get something back.
The moment anything goes against you, you blame someone else.
This is because you’re deeply insecure and it strikes at the nerve and the thought about yourself that you trully hate- that you’re not worthy.
Therefore you spin between your imaginary value of yourself, and the resultant fall from grace when the reality does not match your imagination. It must be ‘their’ fault.
The reason you don’t push yourself after two years is because you desperately don’t want to defile or lose your perceived inner reality of yourself (your amazing potential and how much ‘effort’ you put in) by bearing it to the light of the truer reality and the side of yourself you feel insecure about.
I am one of many many guys here on this forum who learnt insane amounts about theirself by learning about the power of honesty with girls. You so far have not had the guts to take up that spear and join the battlefield.
You have only yourself to blame.
You keep on thinking you’re owed something. You’re not. Sorry.
In outer terms, you have a very very nasty habit in terms of your reaction to negative stimulus. It spirals you into your horrendous energy-sucky negative perception of yourself, which you then throw out by blaming it on others.
There’s actually a lot for you to gain here. Until you get rid of your horrendous attitude, that’s not going to happen.
I really like this advice and want to share this with you guys, and also have this around for myself as a reminder.
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About me Star sign: Scorpio
Favourite food: Potato
Favourite sport: MMA
Favourite city: Amsterdam
Favourite country: Cuba
Languages spoken: 3
Favourite Book: Yes man
Favourite music: Salsa
Favourite Drink: Green Tea
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