A year or so ago, I sought help from my GP for my mild depression, I’ve felt down nearly all my life. Although I’ve never contemplated suicide, or resorted to drug abuse or anything as bad as that, I’ve always felt about 75% happy in life. Ever since I could remember I’ve had a feeling that I’m not living to my potential, I’m not as happy as I could be, as motivated as I could be.
Something sparked me to get help around this time last year, and I went to see the GP, my problems were dismissed after 2 mins of talking to her, and she said that everyone my age was a bit insecure about themselves, as they’ve finished university and in a mini existential crisis not knowing what to do with their lives.
A year on [to the present day if you can't keep track] and I feel I’ve made very small progress in my life and happiness, and with the GP unable to offer any help, I’ve taken matters into my own hands and decided to take some over the counter happiness pills called st John’s wort. I heard about it on a discussion board, apparantly it’s completely natural (derived from a plant), has no side affects and proven to be as effective as prozac is some cases.
I’ve taken it for 3 days now, I remember I had a small placebo affect on the 2nd day of taking it, I just felt a lot better, and then I read up on st john’s wort a little bit more and discovered that the effects kick in about 2-3 weeks after starting supplementation… which made me feel back to pre-supplementation mood again.
So I’m well aware of placebo.
I have other positive things I want to talk about but will do so when I get the time.
