Identified stumbling blocks that prevent me from progressing

After Monday nights great success, I was on a high and stop pushing myself further.

My plan was to go out Tuesday night, however I didn’t because at the time I was "feeling tired", this was probably just an excuse as I was worried of having a bad night compared to the previous night.

I get this feeling from time to time, it’s like a huge period of motivation to change my life circumstance which is a reaction from a period of negativity and seeing the reality of my life situation. Where the motivation propels me to action for a brief moment but then I quickly get caught up in my comfort zone, get become happy for a bit, but don’t take steps to keep going forward.

I guess this means I have to release on my success barriers so I can go past them. Here are some releasing points for my success barriers

*Being happy uses energy and burns me out
*I don’t really need girls, I’m happy with just getting a few positive reactions from girls and then not bothering to take it further
*Getting girls will mean I have to create huge lifestyle changes which will be hard on me and stress me out
*I’m scared of failing further down the line
*Sometimes I just can’t be bothered

I also went out Wednesday night, and didn’t really have as much of a good time as I did on Monday, I felt like I was going through motions that I’ve already been through time and time again and was under stimulated, this funniest bit was when a girl said to me "OMG you have such a serious face on that it’s not even funny", and then the next time she came round she says "hello boy, that never smiles".

One good thing I experienced was that I was completely numb to negativity and rejection, previously this would really mess with my head but today it felt completely at ease and didn’t really care about what sort of reaction I was getting from other people.

Masturbation

After Monday night I had a good celebratory wank, two in fact, and never felt so good in my life. Tuesday morning I had two wanks and today (Thursday) I’ve just had two wanks, I think having a wank before doing something challenging that will stretch my comfort zone is a bad idea, as it makes me stagnate and not bother working hard for anything. I do like wanking. So I should really limit wanking to only doing it as a reward.

Sedona Method

I also need to make sure that I proactively seek out opportunities on releasing, I’m falling behind on this and need to keep it up.