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Kamagra is here

totalwise — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 18:25:15 +0000

I just got a batch of kamagra pills today, through the post. I ordered it from kamagranow.co.uk and testing the pills have yielded quite pleasurable results. I can get it up much more easily, stimulation is a lot more intense and the orgasm is the most powerful I have experience, On top of that erections were rock hard.

I have a friend called J, and he’s quite the fan of kamagra pills, however he is addicted to kamagra in that he can’t imagine having sex without the pills.

I got them because I think the nerves got the better of me and I couldn’t come, during the last time I’ve done the deed. I think sex is still a new experience for me, and being touched sexually still makes me jump sometimes. So to put myself at ease I’ve bought a packet of K and will take them before my next venture. I plan to come off as soon as I’m experienced enough to relax during sex.

Now, I’ve been sitting on my desk the past couple of days ponder about what my next escort experience will be. Honestly, there are so many women offering their “time” that I’m literally spoilt for choice. A bit like a kid in a candy store.

I’ve set a target for 10 escort experiences, I say I’m 1 down and 9 to go. A part of me says just get it over and done with, the other part of me says I need to pick carefully and wisely to make my experience the best possible.

Because just like in any other trade there are unscrupulous people out there who are all too willing to take your money and not offer the goods.

I’m using a website called adultwork.com to make my selection, and checking their feedback on punternet.com

Started to put on more muscle

totalwise — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 22:57:06 +0000

Ive been weight training on ans off for a very long time, but with the absense of a clear cut goal on what sort of shape and size I want to achieve I never really got any bigger then a mildly defined 12stone 8pounds physique.

Relating back to my earlier post on homeostatis, I realised that deep down that the size I wanted to be at and I didn’t really want to get any bigger than that.

I’ve changed my impression of myself and I visualise myaelf being a lean 86kg (13 stone 7pounds), now I eat like some on 86kg and I feel like I already am this way. The theory of homeostatis means that it should allow me to hit the target weight easier.

I’m currently at 86kg with a bit of a belly, 16% bodyfat, if I were to be 12% my weight would be 81kg, so I have 5kg more lean muscle to get.

Hooraaa

Bad sleep pattern part 2

totalwise — Tue, 19 May 2009 11:39:50 +0000

I ended my last post early, and went to bed abruptly. I was going to do an all-nighter, not sleep, and hope that next time I sleep like a baby.

Last minute I decided agaisnt it, because this will probably cause havoc for my body clock, instead I went to sleep 6am and woke up 10am. A strong coffee, a red bull, and some freshly juiced orange with the aid of my blender and I’m feeling great.

Got a muay thai class and a few projects lined up, need to check out the salsa scene and get dancing this week too, but at the moment my muay thai and weight training is taking up all my time..

One thing about being out of work is that, you might have all the free time in the world, but the world still revolves around the 9-5 world, there’s still nothing to do mon-fri, and all the best classes, be it salsa, martial arts, meetup.com events, speed-dating, etc all take place in the 7-9 peak time. So even if you have 10 hours to do whatever it is you want, if you want to do any of the above, you have to sacrifice a few.

Bad Sleep pattern

totalwise — Tue, 19 May 2009 03:44:52 +0000

I’m not working right now, making a bit of spare income from my websites, looking for a job at the moment. However before I even begin to start looking I need to sort out my bad sleeping pattern, history has taught me if you’re waking up around 2pm on a daily basis and applying for jobs, they’re not going to be impressed when they call you up to invite you for interviews and find you answering after having just woken up.

When I was a student I had the luxury of waking up whenever I felt like knowing that I have a few buddies at uni who’ll cover my back, by lending me their notes, and that ultimately I don’t really have any real responsibilties other than to make sure I hand in 4 assignments before the deadline and cram enough stuff in for the exams at the end of term. I have to remind myself that in the real world, it doesnt work like that.

When I was at uni this was a huge drain for me, and I tried lots of different methods to fix my sleeping pattern. One was to skip sleep for a night… let me tell you. This is a bad idea. Trust me, come 9pm the following evening you WILL regret doing it,

Muay Thai

totalwise — Mon, 11 May 2009 18:29:47 +0000

I went to a Muay Thai class last week, I really enjoyed it. I got into a lot of fights when I was at school, I’d get picked on because I used to get easily wound up and racted badly to name calling, if I could go back in time and hold the hands of my kid self, give him a cuddle and tell him, everything is OK, you are special and amazing, you need not worry about what other people think of you, it probably would have had a huge impact on my life.

I remember this was one of the things that we went through when we were under trance at the Essence course, sometimes to this day, when I am feeling paticularly bad I know that it’s just the kid inside my that’s reacting this way, and I go into my head and tell me kid self, it’s OK, it’s alright to make a few mistakes, but you shouldn’t feel bad about it..

Anyway, going back, I went to a boys school and got into so many fights that I lost count. Anything slightly annoying I would erupt and get into fights, Of course I’ve beaten other people and got beaten myself. but I really like the rush of getting into fights, muay thai I guess is a rekindling of the old thrill, but I’m not hurting anyone.

Now I wish, I could go back in time, and take my old self to a muay thai class, it would have been great if my dad got me into martial arts when I was a kid.

Muay Thai fighters